This is my dad. I never really got to know him. I was 3 when his spirit decided it was time to disengage from this world. This past Sunday was Father’s Day and I realized that I have a lot more questions about what this concept of “father” is than I do reference…
Read moreThe Practice of Being Human in Intimate Relationship
From today’s journal entry … For context, I was contemplating my particular flavour of how I avoid intimacy. We all have different strategies, and a few years ago through deep inquiry, real life practice, and adventures in relationship experimentation, I discovered that my particular flavour is a kind of fog. Keep things vague….
Read moreRelationship Epiphany
Relationship Epiphany. I want to be with one who knows how to be with a Wild Bird. One who can sit with Wildness Not needing to tame it. Not needing to power over. Or take by trickery Or coercion. I want One who knows deep embodied reverence for the Wild spirit of life…
Read moreLiving The Tower
Recently I’ve been writing a lot about The Tower card. That’s because a few weeks ago I was consecutively pulling that card over and over again. I knew in my bones that things would fall apart once more. I thought today I would do a journal style entry of the real time process of…
Read moreThe Wheel of Fortune
I’ve pulled the Wheel of Fortune twice this week and so I thought today is a good day to break it down. Fate. Luck. Destiny. When we like the results, this is what we call it. Misfortune. Bad luck. Curse. When we don’t like the results, this is what we call it….
Read moreWhy Self Improvement Isn’t
Self Improvement. Or is it? There has been something really getting under my skin about the self improvement, teaching, and coaching industry for a long time – a really long time. There is just something that just felt off – something I couldn’t quite put my finger on. Then last year, in early 2021, it…
Read moreHow I Deal With My Own Programming
I want to peel back the curtains and reveal something to you today, dear reader. These are the conversations I have with myself on a daily, hourly, moment to moment basis. I want to pop open the lid so you can see inside. Not because I’ve found some kind of revolutionary way of…
Read moreTantrums and Honest Communication
I love watching a good tantrum. The younger the child, the more authentic (we tend to start to use our tantrums to manipulate our parents as we get older). There is something so pure about not yet knowing that you don’t have permission from society to fully express yourself, in the moment. Am…
Read moreThe Subtle Art of Manipulation
How do you like to manipulate people? Today I thought I’d write about some of my personal favourite ways. If you think I’m joking, I most certainly am not! And if you think that you are “above” the subtle art of manipulation, think again – we all do it. If that ruffled your feathers a…
Read moreThe Myth of The Strong Independent Woman
I used to think I had way more masculine energy than feminine energy. I was the no label, jeans and t-shirt wearing, mountain climbing, adventurous outdoor chick. I was definitely not a girly girl. Even growing up in a pretty liberal, hippy, idealist community where everything goes, I still absorbed these cultural norms we…
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