how language shapes our world

Of course!   But OF COURSE!   It struck me like lightning as I read “The Earth Path” by Starhawk. I’m reading words like “the energy embodied in systems, also stored, held available for future use … the solar budget” and I can feel in my bones that something is amiss. Yes, something indeed is amiss….

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the story of my little white house

There’s something I feel I need to confess.   I’m not sure if confess is the right word – it certainly wasn’t a sin or wrongdoing. Perhaps what I’m looking for is to be witnessed, even if no one actually reads this post, there is something concrete and ritualistic about publishing words in the digital…

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an unexpected realization

In my previous post I shared my experience of how a flash of frustration and anger revealed threads of underlying grief in a spontaneous keening that sprang fourth from my body (you can read that whole post HERE).   What I didn’t realize at the time of practice or reflection or writing that post just…

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keening

What is the sound of grief? How does it move?   Today I sat with a familiar feeling – perhaps you can relate (I imagine any human can) – the feeling of frustration.   My frustration came from a recent phenomena. Lately in my spiritual practice I have been receiving silence – or no answer…

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The Deeper Thing

I’ve been home sick for a few days now. Not the kind of sick where you think you’re dying, mind you, but the kind where you can’t go out in public, but you’re still healthy enough to read, listen to podcasts, and journal between naps, tea, and soup.   So I went down a rabbit…

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i am woman 2

Recently I reposted a piece on my Facebook profile (see original post here) not sure what to expect from responses. I normally don’t post controversial shit on my Facebook as I use it as a platform for my business and like to maintain an inclusive vibe and a safe place where people can share their…

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i miss home

I miss my home. the one I built little by little over time. I had no idea what I was doing. who buys furniture for the first time in their thirties? I guess I do.   I miss my home. the one I never felt built for or understood in but it was familiar. with…

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taboo

In a recent post on social media I talked about a recent embodiment session I did with myself in where I alchemized intense menstrual cramps and nausea into not just 1 but 2 cervical orgasms (without touching my vulva by the way).   I’ve been in deep devotion and reverence to following the embodiment path…

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i am woman

I used to hold such a deep resentment for being born into a female body. A woman’s body. And I still have so many reasons to be in resentment. The patriarchy for one. The degradation of the planet (the ultimate symbol of the female body). The way we shame, consume, and exploit the feminine is…

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home (2)

I don’t think I really understood what home was until now.   It took loss to open me up to it.   It took the loss of one of my most central and formative relationships. It took immigrating to a different country, cultural context, and land. It took deciding to heal deep trauma – ancestral,…

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