What is HOME? I’ve been contemplating this for I feel like my whole life. The answer changes in a way, but there is always something that never ever does. Recognition. Felt sense. There is a knowing in my bones and simply knows home. As babies, our nervous systems learn what “home” is through our…
Read morethe romantic myth of our fantasy self
You know the one. Living the Dream. Except people who are actually living their dreams rarely share the reality of what that looks like. Why? Because it’s not a sexy in reality as it is on Instagram. Because the fantasy of our imagination keeps it intact. I want to talk about…
Read morejudgement: free your mind
Why, oh why must it be this way? Before you can read me You got to learn how to see me I said Free your mind And the rest will follow ~ En Vogue This is Part 3 of 3 August 1st to 11th 2022. Part 1 “take me to your healer” is here….
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Part 2/3 For August 1st to 11th, 2022. For Part 1 check out my previous post, “take me to your healer”. Destiny. We truly misunderstand this word – this concept. Often we understand destiny or fate as something that we cannot control. Things that are out of our hands. It is either…
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Temperance and The Devil Reversed The week of August 1st 2022 tarot spread. For those of you who were curious about the recent spread from my Instagram stories here is part 1 (I think I’ll probably break it down in 3 parts over all since that’s how the spread landed – in 3 parts)….
Read moreletters to mom
Dear mom, I’ve found myself thinking about you a lot these days. Perhaps it’s the not fully understanding. You see, I miss the essence of mother. I find myself trying to reconstruct, reroot, start from scratch essentially, rebuilding these bones of existence that is mother. I miss having a sense of security…
Read moretriggers
Let’s suppose for a moment, that you, like me are working on some kind of self-actualization. Call it whatever you want. Even simply “being a better person”, or “being the best version of yourself you can be”. A lot of us are striving for this for some reason or another. Just consider the…
Read moreShitty Day Revelation
Today was a shitty day. No nothing bad happened. The world in general was kind to me. However in this morning’s journaling I came to a rather stark and honest realization about the current state of my health. I’m ok. This is not to insight panic. But also, there is something….
Read moreThe Red Dakini
I feel like I am starting to gather at the point where I am no longer tracking my actions, my activities, my daily bread tethered to the nervous systems of other people and situations. I am beginning – the first tender threads taking root – to be lead by this thing called Desire. I am…
Read moreI love the time and in between
I love the time and in between The calm inside me In the space where I can breathe I believe there is a distance I have wandered To touch upon the years of Reaching out and reaching in Holding out, holding in I believe This is heaven to no one else but me And I’ll…
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