destiny

Part 2/3 For August 1st to 11th, 2022.   For Part 1 check out my previous post, “take me to your healer”.   Destiny. We truly misunderstand this word – this concept.   Often we understand destiny or fate as something that we cannot control. Things that are out of our hands. It is either…

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take me to your healer

Temperance and The Devil Reversed The week of August 1st 2022 tarot spread.     For those of you who were curious about the recent spread from my Instagram stories here is part 1 (I think I’ll probably break it down in 3 parts over all since that’s how the spread landed – in 3 parts)….

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letters to mom

Dear mom,   I’ve found myself thinking about you a lot these days.   Perhaps it’s the not fully understanding. You see, I miss the essence of mother. I find myself trying to reconstruct, reroot, start from scratch essentially, rebuilding these bones of existence that is mother.   I miss having a sense of security…

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triggers

Let’s suppose for a moment, that you, like me are working on some kind of self-actualization.   Call it whatever you want. Even simply “being a better person”, or “being the best version of yourself you can be”.   A lot of us are striving for this for some reason or another. Just consider the…

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The Red Dakini

I feel like I am starting to gather at the point where I am no longer tracking my actions, my activities, my daily bread tethered to the nervous systems of other people and situations. I am beginning – the first tender threads taking root – to be lead by this thing called Desire. I am…

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Safety Security Home

I don’t think I’ve ever really talked about this publicly but in early 2020 I decided to disengage from almost all contact with my mom.   At present, July 13th 2022, I realize it’s been exactly 2 years since the last time we exchanged emails privately and since Christmas of 2019 since the last time…

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What About My Inner Teenager?

We often talk about doing Inner Child work. In the land of self discovery and integration there is reconnecting to the Inner Child as a place of healing trauma, integrating difficult experiences, and reclaiming creativity. Yes to all of that.   But what about our Inner Teenager? I don’t really hear this part of ourselves…

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The Practice of Being Human in Intimate Relationship

From today’s journal entry …   For context, I was contemplating my particular flavour of how I avoid intimacy. We all have different strategies, and a few years ago through deep inquiry, real life practice, and adventures in relationship experimentation, I discovered that my particular flavour is a kind of fog.   Keep things vague….

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The Right Way of Doing Anything

Is there really a “right” way to do something? Anything? Our philosophical stance might vary depending on what our particular ideology may be at that time in our lives. Are we the live and let live creative? Do we want to be perceived as open minded? Or are we honest about our stubborn ways and…

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