abundance

I seriously think we have this abundance thing wrong. We’ve confused abundance for material wealth and possessions. We’ve confused it with having a house, or land – property, vacation homes, and investments.   And by doing so, we’ve confused abundance with survival.   They are nowhere near the same thing, although they sometimes exist within…

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judgement: free your mind

Why, oh why must it be this way? Before you can read me You got to learn how to see me I said Free your mind And the rest will follow ~ En Vogue   This is Part 3 of 3 August 1st to 11th 2022. Part 1 “take me to your healer” is here….

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Shitty Day Revelation

Today was a shitty day.   No nothing bad happened. The world in general was kind to me.   However in this morning’s journaling I came to a rather stark and honest realization about the current state of my health.   I’m ok. This is not to insight panic.   But also, there is something….

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Safety Security Home

I don’t think I’ve ever really talked about this publicly but in early 2020 I decided to disengage from almost all contact with my mom.   At present, July 13th 2022, I realize it’s been exactly 2 years since the last time we exchanged emails privately and since Christmas of 2019 since the last time…

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The Money Experiment Step 1

The beginnings of this experiment start pretty much where many money mindset books and courses start.   It started for me by writing out some of my adaptive money habits and beliefs but with a twist. You see, many exercises ask you to journal all of your “negative money beliefs” through visualizations or mediations or…

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Mourning My Future Self

The last year and a half have been a sort of unravelling so to speak. The illuminations that have revealed themselves – my truth – have been so starkly honest.   I am eternally grateful that I have the capacity and the self compassion for myself to be able to witness and digest Truth without…

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An Experiment is Born

I spent some time this morning, as I often do, journaling and digesting anything potent that came through in dream land. Last night was a particularly potent night for me, as the Full Moon illuminated my Ascendant. What would this bring about? I wondered as I drifted off to sleep.   An epiphany.   Over…

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Living The Tower

Recently I’ve been writing a lot about The Tower card.   That’s because a few weeks ago I was consecutively pulling that card over and over again. I knew in my bones that things would fall apart once more. I thought today I would do a journal style entry of the real time process of…

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Why I Don’t Manage My Anxiety

I have anxiety.   Most people don’t really know this about me. They perceive me as a generally outgoing, extroverted, adventurous woman. They see me as youthful, playful, and fearless.   And while I am many of those things (except extroverted, I am 100% an introvert) I can assure you, I am also human. I…

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