What is HOME? I’ve been contemplating this for I feel like my whole life. The answer changes in a way, but there is always something that never ever does. Recognition. Felt sense. There is a knowing in my bones and simply knows home. As babies, our nervous systems learn what “home” is through our…
Read morethe romantic myth of our fantasy self
You know the one. Living the Dream. Except people who are actually living their dreams rarely share the reality of what that looks like. Why? Because it’s not a sexy in reality as it is on Instagram. Because the fantasy of our imagination keeps it intact. I want to talk about…
Read morejudgement: free your mind
Why, oh why must it be this way? Before you can read me You got to learn how to see me I said Free your mind And the rest will follow ~ En Vogue This is Part 3 of 3 August 1st to 11th 2022. Part 1 “take me to your healer” is here….
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Part 2/3 For August 1st to 11th, 2022. For Part 1 check out my previous post, “take me to your healer”. Destiny. We truly misunderstand this word – this concept. Often we understand destiny or fate as something that we cannot control. Things that are out of our hands. It is either…
Read moreShitty Day Revelation
Today was a shitty day. No nothing bad happened. The world in general was kind to me. However in this morning’s journaling I came to a rather stark and honest realization about the current state of my health. I’m ok. This is not to insight panic. But also, there is something….
Read moreSafety Security Home
I don’t think I’ve ever really talked about this publicly but in early 2020 I decided to disengage from almost all contact with my mom. At present, July 13th 2022, I realize it’s been exactly 2 years since the last time we exchanged emails privately and since Christmas of 2019 since the last time…
Read moreRemembering the Bones of My Work
Opening to unseen possibilities. Healing in unexpected ways. I’ve been deep in the cauldron these past few days. Sitting in the wisdom of the New Moon in Cancer, the flesh and blood of my anger and grief shedding from my womb, I’m deep in the crucible. A few days prior to the beginning…
Read moreA Father’s Day Message
This is my dad. I never really got to know him. I was 3 when his spirit decided it was time to disengage from this world. This past Sunday was Father’s Day and I realized that I have a lot more questions about what this concept of “father” is than I do reference…
Read moreThe Practice of Being Human in Intimate Relationship
From today’s journal entry … For context, I was contemplating my particular flavour of how I avoid intimacy. We all have different strategies, and a few years ago through deep inquiry, real life practice, and adventures in relationship experimentation, I discovered that my particular flavour is a kind of fog. Keep things vague….
Read moreRelationship Epiphany
Relationship Epiphany. I want to be with one who knows how to be with a Wild Bird. One who can sit with Wildness Not needing to tame it. Not needing to power over. Or take by trickery Or coercion. I want One who knows deep embodied reverence for the Wild spirit of life…
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