home

What is HOME? I’ve been contemplating this for I feel like my whole life. The answer changes in a way, but there is always something that never ever does.   Recognition. Felt sense. There is a knowing in my bones and simply knows home.   As babies, our nervous systems learn what “home” is through our…

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judgement: free your mind

Why, oh why must it be this way? Before you can read me You got to learn how to see me I said Free your mind And the rest will follow ~ En Vogue   This is Part 3 of 3 August 1st to 11th 2022. Part 1 “take me to your healer” is here….

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destiny

Part 2/3 For August 1st to 11th, 2022.   For Part 1 check out my previous post, “take me to your healer”.   Destiny. We truly misunderstand this word – this concept.   Often we understand destiny or fate as something that we cannot control. Things that are out of our hands. It is either…

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Shitty Day Revelation

Today was a shitty day.   No nothing bad happened. The world in general was kind to me.   However in this morning’s journaling I came to a rather stark and honest realization about the current state of my health.   I’m ok. This is not to insight panic.   But also, there is something….

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Safety Security Home

I don’t think I’ve ever really talked about this publicly but in early 2020 I decided to disengage from almost all contact with my mom.   At present, July 13th 2022, I realize it’s been exactly 2 years since the last time we exchanged emails privately and since Christmas of 2019 since the last time…

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Remembering the Bones of My Work

Opening to unseen possibilities. Healing in unexpected ways.   I’ve been deep in the cauldron these past few days. Sitting in the wisdom of the New Moon in Cancer, the flesh and blood of my anger and grief shedding from my womb, I’m deep in the crucible.   A few days prior to the beginning…

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A Father’s Day Message

This is my dad.   I never really got to know him. I was 3 when his spirit decided it was time to disengage from this world.   This past Sunday was Father’s Day and I realized that I have a lot more questions about what this concept of “father” is than I do reference…

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The Practice of Being Human in Intimate Relationship

From today’s journal entry …   For context, I was contemplating my particular flavour of how I avoid intimacy. We all have different strategies, and a few years ago through deep inquiry, real life practice, and adventures in relationship experimentation, I discovered that my particular flavour is a kind of fog.   Keep things vague….

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Relationship Epiphany

Relationship Epiphany.   I want to be with one who knows how to be with a Wild Bird. One who can sit with Wildness Not needing to tame it. Not needing to power over. Or take by trickery Or coercion.   I want One who knows deep embodied reverence for the Wild spirit of life…

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