On a personal level, my nickname in high school was “slow-mo”. It was given and used with endearment and love – I was not amused. However I could not shake the truth of the thing – I at my essence, at my core, am slow. I have always carried within me a deep well of…
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What is the sound of grief? How does it move? Today I sat with a familiar feeling – perhaps you can relate (I imagine any human can) – the feeling of frustration. My frustration came from a recent phenomena. Lately in my spiritual practice I have been receiving silence – or no answer…
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I don’t think I really understood what home was until now. It took loss to open me up to it. It took the loss of one of my most central and formative relationships. It took immigrating to a different country, cultural context, and land. It took deciding to heal deep trauma – ancestral,…
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Success I think I finally “made it”. No, I haven’t hit 100k in my business (truth be hold I haven’t even hit 5 figures, let alone 6!). No, I haven’t sold out my programs. Nope, haven’t found my soulmate, or bought my dream house (I’m actually in the process of a very difficult…
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just let it go … this is one of my most triggering things to hear. I absolutely hate it when someone tells me to let something go. Contemplating just what exactly is it about this particular phrase that just gets under my skin. I checked in with my body. And I landed on something juicy….
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Part 2/3 For August 1st to 11th, 2022. For Part 1 check out my previous post, “take me to your healer”. Destiny. We truly misunderstand this word – this concept. Often we understand destiny or fate as something that we cannot control. Things that are out of our hands. It is either…
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“You”, she said, looking directly at me, “need to get into your bones“. And then she looked away and went back to addressing another student’s question. I hadn’t even asked my question. I had barely even opened my mouth to speak. But she knew. Her acute embodied-ness of her boundaries could see the…
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Let’s suppose for a moment, that you, like me are working on some kind of self-actualization. Call it whatever you want. Even simply “being a better person”, or “being the best version of yourself you can be”. A lot of us are striving for this for some reason or another. Just consider the…
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Today was a shitty day. No nothing bad happened. The world in general was kind to me. However in this morning’s journaling I came to a rather stark and honest realization about the current state of my health. I’m ok. This is not to insight panic. But also, there is something….
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I feel like I am starting to gather at the point where I am no longer tracking my actions, my activities, my daily bread tethered to the nervous systems of other people and situations. I am beginning – the first tender threads taking root – to be lead by this thing called Desire. I am…
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