I open my email to a newsletter … Another White Woman Yoga Retreat … This one Shamanic … Seemingly appropriating not only one, but several indigenous cultures. I sigh. I feel a mix of emotions. Perhaps it’s because I know this particular White Woman in question and it is not so easy to pile her…
Read moremusings on slowness
On a personal level, my nickname in high school was “slow-mo”. It was given and used with endearment and love – I was not amused. However I could not shake the truth of the thing – I at my essence, at my core, am slow. I have always carried within me a deep well of…
Read morestarting over again at any point in your life
I suppose the best way to start this post is life anything we start in life in the wake of so much we are still processing … Ironically, I’ve always found the best advice to anchor to is often in contradiction to what everyone else’s opinion or advice might be. How do we start when we’re…
Read morethe story of my little white house
There’s something I feel I need to confess. I’m not sure if confess is the right word – it certainly wasn’t a sin or wrongdoing. Perhaps what I’m looking for is to be witnessed, even if no one actually reads this post, there is something concrete and ritualistic about publishing words in the digital…
Read morean unexpected realization
In my previous post I shared my experience of how a flash of frustration and anger revealed threads of underlying grief in a spontaneous keening that sprang fourth from my body (you can read that whole post HERE). What I didn’t realize at the time of practice or reflection or writing that post just…
Read moreThe Deeper Thing
I’ve been home sick for a few days now. Not the kind of sick where you think you’re dying, mind you, but the kind where you can’t go out in public, but you’re still healthy enough to read, listen to podcasts, and journal between naps, tea, and soup. So I went down a rabbit…
Read moretaboo
In a recent post on social media I talked about a recent embodiment session I did with myself in where I alchemized intense menstrual cramps and nausea into not just 1 but 2 cervical orgasms (without touching my vulva by the way). I’ve been in deep devotion and reverence to following the embodiment path…
Read morei am woman
I used to hold such a deep resentment for being born into a female body. A woman’s body. And I still have so many reasons to be in resentment. The patriarchy for one. The degradation of the planet (the ultimate symbol of the female body). The way we shame, consume, and exploit the feminine is…
Read morehome (2)
I don’t think I really understood what home was until now. It took loss to open me up to it. It took the loss of one of my most central and formative relationships. It took immigrating to a different country, cultural context, and land. It took deciding to heal deep trauma – ancestral,…
Read moresouth node in scorpio kind of spice
My ancestors were wanderers. Not at first, but after seeking political, religious, and cultural asylum in Canada in the early 1900’s, they moved from one settlement to another, transversing the country and eventually settling in BC, Canada. Then was the part where they burned all of their shit to the ground. Over and over again….
Read more