The Red Dakini

I feel like I am starting to gather at the point where I am no longer tracking my actions, my activities, my daily bread tethered to the nervous systems of other people and situations. I am beginning – the first tender threads taking root – to be lead by this thing called Desire. I am…

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What About My Inner Teenager?

We often talk about doing Inner Child work. In the land of self discovery and integration there is reconnecting to the Inner Child as a place of healing trauma, integrating difficult experiences, and reclaiming creativity. Yes to all of that.   But what about our Inner Teenager? I don’t really hear this part of ourselves…

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The Money Experiment Step 1

The beginnings of this experiment start pretty much where many money mindset books and courses start.   It started for me by writing out some of my adaptive money habits and beliefs but with a twist. You see, many exercises ask you to journal all of your “negative money beliefs” through visualizations or mediations or…

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Starvation vs. Nourishment

I’m going to say something rather obvious and that’s If you starve yourself, you are going to lose weight. If you starve yourself, you will definitely lose weight. If you choose starvation over nourishment, you will inevitably change the shape of your body. But let’s be very clear. You will not love yourself more. You…

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Mourning My Future Self

The last year and a half have been a sort of unravelling so to speak. The illuminations that have revealed themselves – my truth – have been so starkly honest.   I am eternally grateful that I have the capacity and the self compassion for myself to be able to witness and digest Truth without…

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An Experiment is Born

I spent some time this morning, as I often do, journaling and digesting anything potent that came through in dream land. Last night was a particularly potent night for me, as the Full Moon illuminated my Ascendant. What would this bring about? I wondered as I drifted off to sleep.   An epiphany.   Over…

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The Practice of Being Human in Intimate Relationship

From today’s journal entry …   For context, I was contemplating my particular flavour of how I avoid intimacy. We all have different strategies, and a few years ago through deep inquiry, real life practice, and adventures in relationship experimentation, I discovered that my particular flavour is a kind of fog.   Keep things vague….

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The Right Way of Doing Anything

Is there really a “right” way to do something? Anything? Our philosophical stance might vary depending on what our particular ideology may be at that time in our lives. Are we the live and let live creative? Do we want to be perceived as open minded? Or are we honest about our stubborn ways and…

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Can You Love Her, and Not Her Potential

Her, him, they, your own damn self – it doesn’t really matter who.   If you, like me have the blessing and curse of seeing the potential in others, then you may also fall into the trap of falling in love with who they could be rather than who they really are.   It’s ubiquitous…

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