ugly art …

Something not often mentioned in the creative process is the repeated willingness one must possess to do things badly. I was recently reading a chapter in a book called “Writing Down the Bones” where the author shares about her thousands upon thousands of spiral bound journals filled with bad writing. Because bad writing is necessary….

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honing home

The concept of “home” has been of particular interest to me my whole life. I suspect I’m not alone in this quest. However our yearning, our sense of honing in on what home is and what it means seems to come about in different ways for each of us.   In the recent years of…

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you can’t always get what you want

You can’t always get what you wantYou can’t always get what you wantYou can’t always get what you wantBut if you try sometimes, well, you just might findYou get what you need   Let’s break this down … On one hand, we have New Age Spirituality telling us that if we want something sincerely enough,…

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why grownups have ruined fun

We adults tend to suck the fun out of things. We believe (oh, yes, it is a belief, not a fact) in our own seriousness and suffering. We dry up the wells of creativity with our preconceived expectations of how reality should be.   The truth? We have literally no fucking clue why we’re here and what this…

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hunger

What do you hunger for?   I have been contemplating on this in an ever deepening way recently. Hunger. What does it mean to be in relationship to our hunger?   Around 12 years ago I was initiated into chronic illness and after over 8 years in remission, it has come back around to teach…

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mutual ambivalence

mutual ambivalence.   These were the words that came to me as I was contemplating my relationship with my mother this morning. Mutual ambivalence.   Esther Perel speaks to ambivalence in all ranges and types of relationships: “Ambivalence exists in every relational configuration, but we put a lot of pressure on romantic love, in particular,…

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substance part 1

People want substance these days. Hell, I want substance these days.   An astrologer I listen to used the term the other day that struck me. She said “in the spiritual entertainment business …”   There it is. The Spiritual Entertainment Business.   Calling it exactly how it is.   That’s exactly what the majority of our…

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letters to my past self part 1

If you haven’t read my latest post you might not be aware of this major liminal space I currently find myself. Something about the liminal is that it always inspires me to digest and reflect. It’s prime integration time in other words.   I don’t talk about this too much here on the blog, as…

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the Dark Gate, the Point of No Return

Ah, the Liminal Space. The place we like to wax poetic about, yet desperately try to claw our way out as quickly as possible once we find ourselves there.   We like to romanticize change as if we enjoy the process of moving through the Dark Gate. We don’t. We just like the fantasy of…

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starting over again at any point in your life

I suppose the best way to start this post is life anything we start in life in the wake of so much we are still processing …   Ironically, I’ve always found the best advice to anchor to is often in contradiction to what everyone else’s opinion or advice might be. How do we start when we’re…

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