I love the time and in between The calm inside me In the space where I can breathe I believe there is a distance I have wandered To touch upon the years of Reaching out and reaching in Holding out, holding in I believe This is heaven to no one else but me And I’ll…
Read moreSafety Security Home
I don’t think I’ve ever really talked about this publicly but in early 2020 I decided to disengage from almost all contact with my mom. At present, July 13th 2022, I realize it’s been exactly 2 years since the last time we exchanged emails privately and since Christmas of 2019 since the last time…
Read moreStarvation vs. Nourishment
I’m going to say something rather obvious and that’s If you starve yourself, you are going to lose weight. If you starve yourself, you will definitely lose weight. If you choose starvation over nourishment, you will inevitably change the shape of your body. But let’s be very clear. You will not love yourself more. You…
Read moreMourning My Future Self
The last year and a half have been a sort of unravelling so to speak. The illuminations that have revealed themselves – my truth – have been so starkly honest. I am eternally grateful that I have the capacity and the self compassion for myself to be able to witness and digest Truth without…
Read moreRemembering the Bones of My Work
Opening to unseen possibilities. Healing in unexpected ways. I’ve been deep in the cauldron these past few days. Sitting in the wisdom of the New Moon in Cancer, the flesh and blood of my anger and grief shedding from my womb, I’m deep in the crucible. A few days prior to the beginning…
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My womb is shedding. I am writing this under a New Moon in Cancer, June 28th (well now, technically June 29th), 2022. Yesterday I experienced wildly painful period cramps, nausea, the works. I put my hands on my body and I asked it “How do you want to be held right now?” Laying face down,…
Read moreA Father’s Day Message
This is my dad. I never really got to know him. I was 3 when his spirit decided it was time to disengage from this world. This past Sunday was Father’s Day and I realized that I have a lot more questions about what this concept of “father” is than I do reference…
Read moreAn Experiment is Born
I spent some time this morning, as I often do, journaling and digesting anything potent that came through in dream land. Last night was a particularly potent night for me, as the Full Moon illuminated my Ascendant. What would this bring about? I wondered as I drifted off to sleep. An epiphany. Over…
Read moreRelationship Epiphany
Relationship Epiphany. I want to be with one who knows how to be with a Wild Bird. One who can sit with Wildness Not needing to tame it. Not needing to power over. Or take by trickery Or coercion. I want One who knows deep embodied reverence for the Wild spirit of life…
Read moreThe Right Way of Doing Anything
Is there really a “right” way to do something? Anything? Our philosophical stance might vary depending on what our particular ideology may be at that time in our lives. Are we the live and let live creative? Do we want to be perceived as open minded? Or are we honest about our stubborn ways and…
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