I love the time and in between

I love the time and in between The calm inside me In the space where I can breathe I believe there is a distance I have wandered To touch upon the years of Reaching out and reaching in Holding out, holding in I believe This is heaven to no one else but me And I’ll…

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Safety Security Home

I don’t think I’ve ever really talked about this publicly but in early 2020 I decided to disengage from almost all contact with my mom.   At present, July 13th 2022, I realize it’s been exactly 2 years since the last time we exchanged emails privately and since Christmas of 2019 since the last time…

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Starvation vs. Nourishment

I’m going to say something rather obvious and that’s If you starve yourself, you are going to lose weight. If you starve yourself, you will definitely lose weight. If you choose starvation over nourishment, you will inevitably change the shape of your body. But let’s be very clear. You will not love yourself more. You…

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Flesh and Blood

My womb is shedding. I am writing this under a New Moon in Cancer, June 28th (well now, technically June 29th), 2022. Yesterday I experienced wildly painful period cramps, nausea, the works. I put my hands on my body and I asked it “How do you want to be held right now?” Laying face down,…

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A Father’s Day Message

This is my dad.   I never really got to know him. I was 3 when his spirit decided it was time to disengage from this world.   This past Sunday was Father’s Day and I realized that I have a lot more questions about what this concept of “father” is than I do reference…

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The Practice of Being Human in Intimate Relationship

From today’s journal entry …   For context, I was contemplating my particular flavour of how I avoid intimacy. We all have different strategies, and a few years ago through deep inquiry, real life practice, and adventures in relationship experimentation, I discovered that my particular flavour is a kind of fog.   Keep things vague….

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Pain Doesn’t Need Fixing

We tend to think pain is a problem. In our collective belief, pain is a disease we must eradicate, find a cure for.   Pain is undoubtedly uncomfortable. Those who live with pain on a chronic and consistent basis will develop an entirely different relationship beyond uncomfortable, often experiencing depression, becoming identified with their pain,…

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Why Self Improvement Isn’t

Self Improvement. Or is it?   There has been something really getting under my skin about the self improvement, teaching, and coaching industry for a long time – a really long time. There is just something that just felt off – something I couldn’t quite put my finger on. Then last year, in early 2021, it…

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How I Deal With My Own Programming

I want to peel back the curtains and reveal something to you today, dear reader.   These are the conversations I have with myself on a daily, hourly, moment to moment basis.   I want to pop open the lid so you can see inside. Not because I’ve found some kind of revolutionary way of…

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