I had a realization today. It’s one of those realizations that is cumulative, you know? Like you could feel it for years. Like you thought you knew it. Like you thought you were over it – or at least that your reckoning with it was done. Complete. And now I sit with it and realize…
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I have a secret I’ve been keeping that I think it’s time I came clean about. When I think about why I haven’t really talked about this explicitly, it seems obvious. It’s the thing everyone everywhere likes to exploit for profit or shame for profit. Either way, I’ve found myself in an in between…
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There is a lot of talk and teachings around polarity these days – mostly in the relationship coaching world. On masculine-feminine relating. On Sacred Masculine. On Sacred Feminine. I want to take this somewhere else. I want to take this to the essence of the thing. The thing we call Life. A couple…
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Last week, I was having a conversation with my friend Trisha for her podcast. During our conversation, one of the questions she asked me was “how did you arrive to live in Punta de Mita?”, the tiny fishing village turned surf tourism destination on the Pacific coast of Mexico. The truth is, Mita chose…
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What is HOME? I’ve been contemplating this for I feel like my whole life. The answer changes in a way, but there is always something that never ever does. Recognition. Felt sense. There is a knowing in my bones and simply knows home. As babies, our nervous systems learn what “home” is through our…
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You know the one. Living the Dream. Except people who are actually living their dreams rarely share the reality of what that looks like. Why? Because it’s not a sexy in reality as it is on Instagram. Because the fantasy of our imagination keeps it intact. I want to talk about…
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Dear mom, I’ve found myself thinking about you a lot these days. Perhaps it’s the not fully understanding. You see, I miss the essence of mother. I find myself trying to reconstruct, reroot, start from scratch essentially, rebuilding these bones of existence that is mother. I miss having a sense of security…
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Let’s suppose for a moment, that you, like me are working on some kind of self-actualization. Call it whatever you want. Even simply “being a better person”, or “being the best version of yourself you can be”. A lot of us are striving for this for some reason or another. Just consider the…
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Today was a shitty day. No nothing bad happened. The world in general was kind to me. However in this morning’s journaling I came to a rather stark and honest realization about the current state of my health. I’m ok. This is not to insight panic. But also, there is something….
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I feel like I am starting to gather at the point where I am no longer tracking my actions, my activities, my daily bread tethered to the nervous systems of other people and situations. I am beginning – the first tender threads taking root – to be lead by this thing called Desire. I am…
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