What is HOME? I’ve been contemplating this for I feel like my whole life. The answer changes in a way, but there is always something that never ever does. Recognition. Felt sense. There is a knowing in my bones and simply knows home. As babies, our nervous systems learn what “home” is through our…
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Part 2/3 For August 1st to 11th, 2022. For Part 1 check out my previous post, “take me to your healer”. Destiny. We truly misunderstand this word – this concept. Often we understand destiny or fate as something that we cannot control. Things that are out of our hands. It is either…
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“You”, she said, looking directly at me, “need to get into your bones“. And then she looked away and went back to addressing another student’s question. I hadn’t even asked my question. I had barely even opened my mouth to speak. But she knew. Her acute embodied-ness of her boundaries could see the…
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Dear mom, I’ve found myself thinking about you a lot these days. Perhaps it’s the not fully understanding. You see, I miss the essence of mother. I find myself trying to reconstruct, reroot, start from scratch essentially, rebuilding these bones of existence that is mother. I miss having a sense of security…
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Today was a shitty day. No nothing bad happened. The world in general was kind to me. However in this morning’s journaling I came to a rather stark and honest realization about the current state of my health. I’m ok. This is not to insight panic. But also, there is something….
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I feel like I am starting to gather at the point where I am no longer tracking my actions, my activities, my daily bread tethered to the nervous systems of other people and situations. I am beginning – the first tender threads taking root – to be lead by this thing called Desire. I am…
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I love the time and in between The calm inside me In the space where I can breathe I believe there is a distance I have wandered To touch upon the years of Reaching out and reaching in Holding out, holding in I believe This is heaven to no one else but me And I’ll…
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We often talk about doing Inner Child work. In the land of self discovery and integration there is reconnecting to the Inner Child as a place of healing trauma, integrating difficult experiences, and reclaiming creativity. Yes to all of that. But what about our Inner Teenager? I don’t really hear this part of ourselves…
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The beginnings of this experiment start pretty much where many money mindset books and courses start. It started for me by writing out some of my adaptive money habits and beliefs but with a twist. You see, many exercises ask you to journal all of your “negative money beliefs” through visualizations or mediations or…
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I’m going to say something rather obvious and that’s If you starve yourself, you are going to lose weight. If you starve yourself, you will definitely lose weight. If you choose starvation over nourishment, you will inevitably change the shape of your body. But let’s be very clear. You will not love yourself more. You…
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