I open my email to a newsletter … Another White Woman Yoga Retreat … This one Shamanic … Seemingly appropriating not only one, but several indigenous cultures. I sigh. I feel a mix of emotions. Perhaps it’s because I know this particular White Woman in question and it is not so easy to pile her…
Read moremusings on slowness
On a personal level, my nickname in high school was “slow-mo”. It was given and used with endearment and love – I was not amused. However I could not shake the truth of the thing – I at my essence, at my core, am slow. I have always carried within me a deep well of…
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displacement noun /dɪˈspleɪs.mənt/ the situation in which people are forced to leave the place where they normally live What does it mean to belong? This is an important question to unravel and continue to unravel. In fact, the continuum of the unraveling of belonging I believe is one of the core underlying drivers and motivators…
Read morean unexpected realization
In my previous post I shared my experience of how a flash of frustration and anger revealed threads of underlying grief in a spontaneous keening that sprang fourth from my body (you can read that whole post HERE). What I didn’t realize at the time of practice or reflection or writing that post just…
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What is the sound of grief? How does it move? Today I sat with a familiar feeling – perhaps you can relate (I imagine any human can) – the feeling of frustration. My frustration came from a recent phenomena. Lately in my spiritual practice I have been receiving silence – or no answer…
Read moreThe Deeper Thing
I’ve been home sick for a few days now. Not the kind of sick where you think you’re dying, mind you, but the kind where you can’t go out in public, but you’re still healthy enough to read, listen to podcasts, and journal between naps, tea, and soup. So I went down a rabbit…
Read moretaboo
In a recent post on social media I talked about a recent embodiment session I did with myself in where I alchemized intense menstrual cramps and nausea into not just 1 but 2 cervical orgasms (without touching my vulva by the way). I’ve been in deep devotion and reverence to following the embodiment path…
Read morehome (2)
I don’t think I really understood what home was until now. It took loss to open me up to it. It took the loss of one of my most central and formative relationships. It took immigrating to a different country, cultural context, and land. It took deciding to heal deep trauma – ancestral,…
Read moreorgasm and innocence
I have a secret I’ve been keeping that I think it’s time I came clean about. When I think about why I haven’t really talked about this explicitly, it seems obvious. It’s the thing everyone everywhere likes to exploit for profit or shame for profit. Either way, I’ve found myself in an in between…
Read morepolarity and our origins
There is a lot of talk and teachings around polarity these days – mostly in the relationship coaching world. On masculine-feminine relating. On Sacred Masculine. On Sacred Feminine. I want to take this somewhere else. I want to take this to the essence of the thing. The thing we call Life. A couple…
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