the state of things … a pondering

I’ve been pondering a lot lately … The state of the world, the all encompassing doom that often is being felt, circulated, recirculated yet again, on all the platforms, in all the ways …   I have been contemplating a lot about this lately …   Perhaps it’s because I have an abundance of time…

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honing home

The concept of “home” has been of particular interest to me my whole life. I suspect I’m not alone in this quest. However our yearning, our sense of honing in on what home is and what it means seems to come about in different ways for each of us.   In the recent years of…

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you can’t always get what you want

You can’t always get what you wantYou can’t always get what you wantYou can’t always get what you wantBut if you try sometimes, well, you just might findYou get what you need   Let’s break this down … On one hand, we have New Age Spirituality telling us that if we want something sincerely enough,…

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why grownups have ruined fun

We adults tend to suck the fun out of things. We believe (oh, yes, it is a belief, not a fact) in our own seriousness and suffering. We dry up the wells of creativity with our preconceived expectations of how reality should be.   The truth? We have literally no fucking clue why we’re here and what this…

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waiting for the ground swell

What is your capacity to sit in the liminal? What is your tolerance for waiting and listening for the ground swell?   Mine is growing. Every day. I have been sitting in this bardo for years now. Listening. Deep surrender. Sometimes and often … Modulating between wanting for something to happen … And waiting for…

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substance part 1

People want substance these days. Hell, I want substance these days.   An astrologer I listen to used the term the other day that struck me. She said “in the spiritual entertainment business …”   There it is. The Spiritual Entertainment Business.   Calling it exactly how it is.   That’s exactly what the majority of our…

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letters to my past self part 1

If you haven’t read my latest post you might not be aware of this major liminal space I currently find myself. Something about the liminal is that it always inspires me to digest and reflect. It’s prime integration time in other words.   I don’t talk about this too much here on the blog, as…

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the Dark Gate, the Point of No Return

Ah, the Liminal Space. The place we like to wax poetic about, yet desperately try to claw our way out as quickly as possible once we find ourselves there.   We like to romanticize change as if we enjoy the process of moving through the Dark Gate. We don’t. We just like the fantasy of…

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when we were whole: a poem

when we were whole you could see it in our eyes, our cheeks full, our innocence shining unabashedly in our smile.   when we were whole we could smell wet fresh dewy grass cradled by the damp soft earth watching clouds and sky blue.   when we were whole we didn’t yet know of the…

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white woman yoga retreat

I open my email to a newsletter … Another White Woman Yoga Retreat … This one Shamanic … Seemingly appropriating not only one, but several indigenous cultures. I sigh. I feel a mix of emotions. Perhaps it’s because I know this particular White Woman in question and it is not so easy to pile her…

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