starting over again at any point in your life

I suppose the best way to start this post is life anything we start in life in the wake of so much we are still processing …   Ironically, I’ve always found the best advice to anchor to is often in contradiction to what everyone else’s opinion or advice might be. How do we start when we’re…

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the story of my little white house

There’s something I feel I need to confess.   I’m not sure if confess is the right word – it certainly wasn’t a sin or wrongdoing. Perhaps what I’m looking for is to be witnessed, even if no one actually reads this post, there is something concrete and ritualistic about publishing words in the digital…

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an unexpected realization

In my previous post I shared my experience of how a flash of frustration and anger revealed threads of underlying grief in a spontaneous keening that sprang fourth from my body (you can read that whole post HERE).   What I didn’t realize at the time of practice or reflection or writing that post just…

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keening

What is the sound of grief? How does it move?   Today I sat with a familiar feeling – perhaps you can relate (I imagine any human can) – the feeling of frustration.   My frustration came from a recent phenomena. Lately in my spiritual practice I have been receiving silence – or no answer…

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home (2)

I don’t think I really understood what home was until now.   It took loss to open me up to it.   It took the loss of one of my most central and formative relationships. It took immigrating to a different country, cultural context, and land. It took deciding to heal deep trauma – ancestral,…

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south node in scorpio kind of spice

My ancestors were wanderers. Not at first, but after seeking political, religious, and cultural asylum in Canada in the early 1900’s, they moved from one settlement to another, transversing the country and eventually settling in BC, Canada. Then was the part where they burned all of their shit to the ground. Over and over again….

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home

What is HOME? I’ve been contemplating this for I feel like my whole life. The answer changes in a way, but there is always something that never ever does.   Recognition. Felt sense. There is a knowing in my bones and simply knows home.   As babies, our nervous systems learn what “home” is through our…

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plot twist

Something shifted. Notice how most people think that’s a good thing. Right? Like we’ve been waiting for the shift.   Yeah. Until it’s fucking seismic.   Truth is we don’t often like the process of “calling it in”. You know what I mean – if you’ve ever manifested anything meaningful. You know. It’s exciting of course. But it’s also…

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destiny

Part 2/3 For August 1st to 11th, 2022.   For Part 1 check out my previous post, “take me to your healer”.   Destiny. We truly misunderstand this word – this concept.   Often we understand destiny or fate as something that we cannot control. Things that are out of our hands. It is either…

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