I don’t think I’ve ever really talked about this publicly but in early 2020 I decided to disengage from almost all contact with my mom. At present, July 13th 2022, I realize it’s been exactly 2 years since the last time we exchanged emails privately and since Christmas of 2019 since the last time…
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We often talk about doing Inner Child work. In the land of self discovery and integration there is reconnecting to the Inner Child as a place of healing trauma, integrating difficult experiences, and reclaiming creativity. Yes to all of that. But what about our Inner Teenager? I don’t really hear this part of ourselves…
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When we think about the concept of consumerism and living in a consumerist culture we often default to the idea of accumulating stuff. Interestingly enough, when I was writing my recent post about buying my way to my future fantasy self, it wasn’t stuff I was consuming – it was information. It was “investing”…
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The last year and a half have been a sort of unravelling so to speak. The illuminations that have revealed themselves – my truth – have been so starkly honest. I am eternally grateful that I have the capacity and the self compassion for myself to be able to witness and digest Truth without…
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Opening to unseen possibilities. Healing in unexpected ways. I’ve been deep in the cauldron these past few days. Sitting in the wisdom of the New Moon in Cancer, the flesh and blood of my anger and grief shedding from my womb, I’m deep in the crucible. A few days prior to the beginning…
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My womb is shedding. I am writing this under a New Moon in Cancer, June 28th (well now, technically June 29th), 2022. Yesterday I experienced wildly painful period cramps, nausea, the works. I put my hands on my body and I asked it “How do you want to be held right now?” Laying face down,…
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This is my dad. I never really got to know him. I was 3 when his spirit decided it was time to disengage from this world. This past Sunday was Father’s Day and I realized that I have a lot more questions about what this concept of “father” is than I do reference…
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I spent some time this morning, as I often do, journaling and digesting anything potent that came through in dream land. Last night was a particularly potent night for me, as the Full Moon illuminated my Ascendant. What would this bring about? I wondered as I drifted off to sleep. An epiphany. Over…
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From today’s journal entry … For context, I was contemplating my particular flavour of how I avoid intimacy. We all have different strategies, and a few years ago through deep inquiry, real life practice, and adventures in relationship experimentation, I discovered that my particular flavour is a kind of fog. Keep things vague….
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Is there really a “right” way to do something? Anything? Our philosophical stance might vary depending on what our particular ideology may be at that time in our lives. Are we the live and let live creative? Do we want to be perceived as open minded? Or are we honest about our stubborn ways and…
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