ugly art …

Something not often mentioned in the creative process is the repeated willingness one must possess to do things badly. I was recently reading a chapter in a book called “Writing Down the Bones” where the author shares about her thousands upon thousands of spiral bound journals filled with bad writing. Because bad writing is necessary….

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the state of things … a pondering

I’ve been pondering a lot lately … The state of the world, the all encompassing doom that often is being felt, circulated, recirculated yet again, on all the platforms, in all the ways …   I have been contemplating a lot about this lately …   Perhaps it’s because I have an abundance of time…

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honing home

The concept of “home” has been of particular interest to me my whole life. I suspect I’m not alone in this quest. However our yearning, our sense of honing in on what home is and what it means seems to come about in different ways for each of us.   In the recent years of…

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you can’t always get what you want

You can’t always get what you wantYou can’t always get what you wantYou can’t always get what you wantBut if you try sometimes, well, you just might findYou get what you need   Let’s break this down … On one hand, we have New Age Spirituality telling us that if we want something sincerely enough,…

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waiting for the ground swell

What is your capacity to sit in the liminal? What is your tolerance for waiting and listening for the ground swell?   Mine is growing. Every day. I have been sitting in this bardo for years now. Listening. Deep surrender. Sometimes and often … Modulating between wanting for something to happen … And waiting for…

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hunger

What do you hunger for?   I have been contemplating on this in an ever deepening way recently. Hunger. What does it mean to be in relationship to our hunger?   Around 12 years ago I was initiated into chronic illness and after over 8 years in remission, it has come back around to teach…

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substance part 1

People want substance these days. Hell, I want substance these days.   An astrologer I listen to used the term the other day that struck me. She said “in the spiritual entertainment business …”   There it is. The Spiritual Entertainment Business.   Calling it exactly how it is.   That’s exactly what the majority of our…

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a word on punishment

My mom said something to me this morning that was so revealing and it struck deep. A flippant remark, yet, telling. Telling of humanity perhaps or our maturity as a collective perhaps – I’m still not sure.   She was talking about my cat actually. We’ve just recently been letting my indoor/outdoor cat outside in…

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the Dark Gate, the Point of No Return

Ah, the Liminal Space. The place we like to wax poetic about, yet desperately try to claw our way out as quickly as possible once we find ourselves there.   We like to romanticize change as if we enjoy the process of moving through the Dark Gate. We don’t. We just like the fantasy of…

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