starting over again at any point in your life

I suppose the best way to start this post is life anything we start in life in the wake of so much we are still processing …   Ironically, I’ve always found the best advice to anchor to is often in contradiction to what everyone else’s opinion or advice might be. How do we start when we’re…

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how language shapes our world

Of course!   But OF COURSE!   It struck me like lightning as I read “The Earth Path” by Starhawk. I’m reading words like “the energy embodied in systems, also stored, held available for future use … the solar budget” and I can feel in my bones that something is amiss. Yes, something indeed is amiss….

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an unexpected realization

In my previous post I shared my experience of how a flash of frustration and anger revealed threads of underlying grief in a spontaneous keening that sprang fourth from my body (you can read that whole post HERE).   What I didn’t realize at the time of practice or reflection or writing that post just…

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keening

What is the sound of grief? How does it move?   Today I sat with a familiar feeling – perhaps you can relate (I imagine any human can) – the feeling of frustration.   My frustration came from a recent phenomena. Lately in my spiritual practice I have been receiving silence – or no answer…

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taboo

In a recent post on social media I talked about a recent embodiment session I did with myself in where I alchemized intense menstrual cramps and nausea into not just 1 but 2 cervical orgasms (without touching my vulva by the way).   I’ve been in deep devotion and reverence to following the embodiment path…

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i am woman

I used to hold such a deep resentment for being born into a female body. A woman’s body. And I still have so many reasons to be in resentment. The patriarchy for one. The degradation of the planet (the ultimate symbol of the female body). The way we shame, consume, and exploit the feminine is…

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letters to my mom part 2

Dear mom,   You once told me that I’m your best friend and I’ve always resented that. You see, I don’t want to be your friend. Don’t want to be the person you call when you are upset or anxious.   I never agreed to that.   What I want is to be your daughter….

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I think I finally made it

Success   I think I finally “made it”.   No, I haven’t hit 100k in my business (truth be hold I haven’t even hit 5 figures, let alone 6!). No, I haven’t sold out my programs. Nope, haven’t found my soulmate, or bought my dream house (I’m actually in the process of a very difficult…

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choice point

I had a realization today. It’s one of those realizations that is cumulative, you know? Like you could feel it for years. Like you thought you knew it. Like you thought you were over it – or at least that your reckoning with it was done. Complete. And now I sit with it and realize…

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orgasm and innocence

I have a secret I’ve been keeping that I think it’s time I came clean about.   When I think about why I haven’t really talked about this explicitly, it seems obvious. It’s the thing everyone everywhere likes to exploit for profit or shame for profit. Either way, I’ve found myself in an in between…

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