I had a realization today. It’s one of those realizations that is cumulative, you know? Like you could feel it for years. Like you thought you knew it. Like you thought you were over it – or at least that your reckoning with it was done. Complete. And now I sit with it and realize…
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just let it go … this is one of my most triggering things to hear. I absolutely hate it when someone tells me to let something go. Contemplating just what exactly is it about this particular phrase that just gets under my skin. I checked in with my body. And I landed on something juicy….
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I’m going to start by clarifying that I am not claiming to be an “expert” on this by any means. What I am about to share with you is my own humble experience with manifesting my dreams … And … What happened when it was time to let them go. Yesterday I wrote a…
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Last week, I was having a conversation with my friend Trisha for her podcast. During our conversation, one of the questions she asked me was “how did you arrive to live in Punta de Mita?”, the tiny fishing village turned surf tourism destination on the Pacific coast of Mexico. The truth is, Mita chose…
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What is HOME? I’ve been contemplating this for I feel like my whole life. The answer changes in a way, but there is always something that never ever does. Recognition. Felt sense. There is a knowing in my bones and simply knows home. As babies, our nervous systems learn what “home” is through our…
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Dear mom, I’ve found myself thinking about you a lot these days. Perhaps it’s the not fully understanding. You see, I miss the essence of mother. I find myself trying to reconstruct, reroot, start from scratch essentially, rebuilding these bones of existence that is mother. I miss having a sense of security…
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Today was a shitty day. No nothing bad happened. The world in general was kind to me. However in this morning’s journaling I came to a rather stark and honest realization about the current state of my health. I’m ok. This is not to insight panic. But also, there is something….
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I love the time and in between The calm inside me In the space where I can breathe I believe there is a distance I have wandered To touch upon the years of Reaching out and reaching in Holding out, holding in I believe This is heaven to no one else but me And I’ll…
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I don’t think I’ve ever really talked about this publicly but in early 2020 I decided to disengage from almost all contact with my mom. At present, July 13th 2022, I realize it’s been exactly 2 years since the last time we exchanged emails privately and since Christmas of 2019 since the last time…
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I’m going to say something rather obvious and that’s If you starve yourself, you are going to lose weight. If you starve yourself, you will definitely lose weight. If you choose starvation over nourishment, you will inevitably change the shape of your body. But let’s be very clear. You will not love yourself more. You…
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