ugly art …

Something not often mentioned in the creative process is the repeated willingness one must possess to do things badly. I was recently reading a chapter in a book called “Writing Down the Bones” where the author shares about her thousands upon thousands of spiral bound journals filled with bad writing. Because bad writing is necessary….

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mutual ambivalence

mutual ambivalence.   These were the words that came to me as I was contemplating my relationship with my mother this morning. Mutual ambivalence.   Esther Perel speaks to ambivalence in all ranges and types of relationships: “Ambivalence exists in every relational configuration, but we put a lot of pressure on romantic love, in particular,…

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the story of my little white house

There’s something I feel I need to confess.   I’m not sure if confess is the right word – it certainly wasn’t a sin or wrongdoing. Perhaps what I’m looking for is to be witnessed, even if no one actually reads this post, there is something concrete and ritualistic about publishing words in the digital…

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The Money Experiment Step 1

The beginnings of this experiment start pretty much where many money mindset books and courses start.   It started for me by writing out some of my adaptive money habits and beliefs but with a twist. You see, many exercises ask you to journal all of your “negative money beliefs” through visualizations or mediations or…

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Mourning My Future Self

The last year and a half have been a sort of unravelling so to speak. The illuminations that have revealed themselves – my truth – have been so starkly honest.   I am eternally grateful that I have the capacity and the self compassion for myself to be able to witness and digest Truth without…

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The Subtleties of Self Protection

I wanted to share about a dream I had recently.   I was reconnecting with an old and very dear friend of mine. As we hugged, I could sense the layers upon layers of hardness that her body, and her being had developed around her. She was struggling with relationship, with deeper connection, with intimacy….

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Pain Doesn’t Need Fixing

We tend to think pain is a problem. In our collective belief, pain is a disease we must eradicate, find a cure for.   Pain is undoubtedly uncomfortable. Those who live with pain on a chronic and consistent basis will develop an entirely different relationship beyond uncomfortable, often experiencing depression, becoming identified with their pain,…

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