Whatever’s in front of you … Write whatever’s in front of you … Draw whatever’s in front of you … Especially if you think it to be boring or unworthy of an audience. Write it anyway. In a recent post I wrote all about the self indulgent insecurities of the creative life … This…
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Something not often mentioned in the creative process is the repeated willingness one must possess to do things badly. I was recently reading a chapter in a book called “Writing Down the Bones” where the author shares about her thousands upon thousands of spiral bound journals filled with bad writing. Because bad writing is necessary….
Read morehoning home
The concept of “home” has been of particular interest to me my whole life. I suspect I’m not alone in this quest. However our yearning, our sense of honing in on what home is and what it means seems to come about in different ways for each of us. In the recent years of…
Read morewhy grownups have ruined fun
We adults tend to suck the fun out of things. We believe (oh, yes, it is a belief, not a fact) in our own seriousness and suffering. We dry up the wells of creativity with our preconceived expectations of how reality should be. The truth? We have literally no fucking clue why we’re here and what this…
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What do you hunger for? I have been contemplating on this in an ever deepening way recently. Hunger. What does it mean to be in relationship to our hunger? Around 12 years ago I was initiated into chronic illness and after over 8 years in remission, it has come back around to teach…
Read moremutual ambivalence
mutual ambivalence. These were the words that came to me as I was contemplating my relationship with my mother this morning. Mutual ambivalence. Esther Perel speaks to ambivalence in all ranges and types of relationships: “Ambivalence exists in every relational configuration, but we put a lot of pressure on romantic love, in particular,…
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People want substance these days. Hell, I want substance these days. An astrologer I listen to used the term the other day that struck me. She said “in the spiritual entertainment business …” There it is. The Spiritual Entertainment Business. Calling it exactly how it is. That’s exactly what the majority of our…
Read morea word on punishment
My mom said something to me this morning that was so revealing and it struck deep. A flippant remark, yet, telling. Telling of humanity perhaps or our maturity as a collective perhaps – I’m still not sure. She was talking about my cat actually. We’ve just recently been letting my indoor/outdoor cat outside in…
Read morenavigating big scary things aka change: lessons from a cat
Safety matters. A sense of Home matters. Today I let my cat outside for the first time. Some context. It’s been less than one month since we’ve left our home in Mexico and landed in rural Canada. 26 days to be exact. If you know anything about cats, you know they are very connected…
Read moremusings on slowness
On a personal level, my nickname in high school was “slow-mo”. It was given and used with endearment and love – I was not amused. However I could not shake the truth of the thing – I at my essence, at my core, am slow. I have always carried within me a deep well of…
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