taboo

In a recent post on social media I talked about a recent embodiment session I did with myself in where I alchemized intense menstrual cramps and nausea into not just 1 but 2 cervical orgasms (without touching my vulva by the way).   I’ve been in deep devotion and reverence to following the embodiment path…

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i am woman

I used to hold such a deep resentment for being born into a female body. A woman’s body. And I still have so many reasons to be in resentment. The patriarchy for one. The degradation of the planet (the ultimate symbol of the female body). The way we shame, consume, and exploit the feminine is…

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home (2)

I don’t think I really understood what home was until now.   It took loss to open me up to it.   It took the loss of one of my most central and formative relationships. It took immigrating to a different country, cultural context, and land. It took deciding to heal deep trauma – ancestral,…

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south node in scorpio kind of spice

My ancestors were wanderers. Not at first, but after seeking political, religious, and cultural asylum in Canada in the early 1900’s, they moved from one settlement to another, transversing the country and eventually settling in BC, Canada. Then was the part where they burned all of their shit to the ground. Over and over again….

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a taste of my own medicine

Uff There’s nothing quite like confronting your own humanity to humble a person.   Over the past year it’s come more and more to the forefront how I invest in my own victim stories. Wowzer. I just can’t ignore it anymore. I can no longer let it go by unacknowledged.   Although I may have…

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letters to my mom part 2

Dear mom,   You once told me that I’m your best friend and I’ve always resented that. You see, I don’t want to be your friend. Don’t want to be the person you call when you are upset or anxious.   I never agreed to that.   What I want is to be your daughter….

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I think I finally made it

Success   I think I finally “made it”.   No, I haven’t hit 100k in my business (truth be hold I haven’t even hit 5 figures, let alone 6!). No, I haven’t sold out my programs. Nope, haven’t found my soulmate, or bought my dream house (I’m actually in the process of a very difficult…

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choice point

I had a realization today. It’s one of those realizations that is cumulative, you know? Like you could feel it for years. Like you thought you knew it. Like you thought you were over it – or at least that your reckoning with it was done. Complete. And now I sit with it and realize…

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just let it go

just let it go … this is one of my most triggering things to hear.   I absolutely hate it when someone tells me to let something go.   Contemplating just what exactly is it about this particular phrase that just gets under my skin. I checked in with my body. And I landed on something juicy….

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orgasm and innocence

I have a secret I’ve been keeping that I think it’s time I came clean about.   When I think about why I haven’t really talked about this explicitly, it seems obvious. It’s the thing everyone everywhere likes to exploit for profit or shame for profit. Either way, I’ve found myself in an in between…

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